What if...

What if God was here with me sitting right beside me right now? Would my speech be different? My actions? My thoughts? I dare to say that I am a hundred percent positive that they would be...Why can't I live my life like He is...Cause He is! He is right beside me each and every step that I take throughout the day; He is beside me when I act a certain way, and maybe most important He is in my head and knows exactly what I think even though I think no one will ever know...God does. I want to live everyday like He is right with me. I need to live everyday like He is...Oh God give me strength to live for you each and everyday....

The CHAMPION!

Every year around Easter I always see things about an Easter bunny and eggs and candy. And while all of those things are well and good, I just think we miss the bus entirely on this one...me included. The real meaning of Easter really means more to me then any job I could get or anything that could ever happen to me in my life...because this one single solitary act has changed my life. 2,000 years ago when my Savior and Lord died on the cross of Calvary was when I really became free. Free from sin, free from pain, and free from death. When I think about this time there is a few things I say and want to say to Jesus...I want to say thank you first and foremost. I know my actions, thoughts, and words don't do you justice in how my life should be lived. And still you came and died. I know that when I am on the golf course and I hit a bad shot and I mutter those few words under my breath that was just another whip across your back...but yet you still came and died. For all of the times like these where I let you down and don't deserve your grace and mercy, but yet you receive me as your own anyway....I say THANK YOU! I know I don't deserve it. I know I deserve death, Hell, and eternal separation from You. But I know that through Jesus I have overcome the grave because he has, I have overcome the powers of Hell because He did first, I have overcome eternal separation from You and been placed into eternal life with you, ONLY because Jesus made a way for me. God, I know that tomorrow on Easter I will probably let you down in more then 1 way, but in advance I want to say that I am sorry, and I ask that you will continue to work in my life, and give me the strength to overcome things like that. I need now more then ever!! Be every present and near. God, be the CHAMPION in my life like you were 2,000 years ago on that cross...Please....God...be more in my life!!
Amen-

The Master's Hands!

Well this weekend was not what I expected it to be, it started out like any other weekend. I got up around 11 on Friday went to play racket ball at the Rec Center with Devan and then on to play some ball with my friends. That's when things got a little painful...I ended up popping my knee cap out of place playing ball, and I have to say it was prolly the worst pain I have felt in my life. But as I was wheeling  into the hospital on the stretcher I thought to myself why me...why is this happening to me!?!? I got the answer about 6 hours later after I got my knee popped back into place and moved to a room out of the ER. As I was wheeled into the room on the board was a list that had the doctors, nurses, and PCTs that were on call for that shirt...but at the very bottom was the answer to my question that I had 6 hours earlier...it said GOD IS IN CONTROL! And I knew that no matter what happened from then on out it was all apart of His divine plan and that my knee was in His Hands, and that he knew exactly what was going to happen to me from then on out. So as I stayed over night in the hospital doctors came in periodically to check on me to make sure I was fine, and he looked at my knee and said I have a pretty strong feeling that you may have torn your ACL. BUT God yet again showed his power and mercy...the MRI scan came back negative for a torn ACL...so the prayers worked, and it just goes to show that everything that is going on with my life right now is truly in the Master's Hands. And that no matter what I have to go through, I wont go at it alone...

CHRISTmas memories

Well this Christmas was no disappointment....it was my first white CChristmas in awhile and I am thrilled about that. The presents were good..they always are...I am so blessed. I'm blessed to have the parents that I have...2 parents that work hard each and everyday in order to provide for my brothers and me. I got this box drum that I have been really wanting, now its time to put it to good use....and we got some new clothes and some xbox stuff....but I think that so many people today get lost in what the true meaning of Christmas is...even me...Ya know when I think of Christmas what I think of is my family getting together and spending the days laughing and carrying on. I think of all of the great friends that I have been blessed with...the ones at home and the ones that are with me at college that help me get through each and every day of the relentless studying and school work. There is this one special one who I have met through a theater class and had bio with them....they mean the world to me and have no idea how much they have helped me in my life just this semester. This person is so very special to me and I don't know what I would do without them....even though all those things are important in life, but sometime I get lost in what the true meaning Christmas should be. Its about the birth of my Savior and Lord Jesus...I know alot of people think about the manger and all, but my pastor always reminds us that its not just about the manger at Christmas time...its also about the cross...because in order for Jesus to die on the cross for my sins he had to be born in that manger. So I just want to say thanks Jesus...I know you didn't have to and I know you really shouldn't have had to...cause you were and ARE God. But I thank you for loving me enough to do that and to die on the cross for my sins...thank you soo much!!!

Answers?

This time of year is usually the happiest for me...I am out of school and am at home with my friends and family that I love. But this year something different as come up, I am not sure what I am to do with my life in its relational aspect. I know God has a plan for me and my life, but sometimes I just don't see it, and wish he could just talk to me through a bush like he did Moses. But I know he knows what is best for me. All I can do is hold onto the promise of Jeremiah 29:11, which says that God knows exactly what is in store for me in the future, and that those plans are not to make me sad or miserable but happy and full filled. So God all I need from you is answers...all I want from you is answers...so I think I will just listen for that still small voice and let it lead me through these troubling times....I will just sit and wait for answers.......

Bringin it...

So today me and my brother and his girlfriend started the P90X workout and let me tell you I didn't think it was possible to work out as hard as I did...but when that dude tells you to Bring It...you better Bring It. I feel like my abs are about to cramp up at any time...ha ha but I guess the saying no pain no gains needs to be my motto from here on out....right?

There are so many times in life that we feel that we just cant go on and need an energy boost. And tonight was definitely one of those nights. I am so thankful that the Thanksgiving holiday is around the corner and that I will be able to rest and hang out with my friends and family for once...But as far as holidays go this is my favorite time of year....I hope everyone has as good of a time as I know I am.

What I need....

God I just find myself wanting more and more of you each and everyday, but there always seems to be something that gets in the way of the me wanting you part. Lord, I want to want you with all that I am and I need to need you with every part of my being, but Lord you know I can't do it without you. If you could just give me the strength to be all that you want me to be and all that you made me to be. Lord, in MY weakness show YOUR stregnth...

Lord when I am sinking reach out and grab me with your victorious righteous right hand and pull me back to your side. Is it just me or do I find it so difficult to be your child in todays time...I need your strength more then ever, and I know that there are many out there like me who need to see your hand at work in their lives as well...

Lord, no matter what I will praise you in everything that comes my way...I will exalt you in every trial in my life...there is nothing that I need more then to be by your side and in your loving arms...Lord, no matter what you will always be my treasure.....No Matter What.